My friend woke me from my low self esteem
Twelve months had gone by and I was in my second year in the University. I met a lot of people, some I related well with and some I couldn’t because of low self esteem.
Yes I had low self esteem even though I had given my life to Christ. I was beautiful, had the flat tummy alongside the figure eight, with the dark and long hair; I never saw myself as beautiful.
It got so bad that when people pass a complement about my beauty (especially my shape) I did not believe them. I had an experience that changed my perception of me. So on this day, I was walking with my friend Brenda and we ran into this cute, pretty lady.
I appreciated her beauty by passing this comment; “wow she’s beautiful”. I was shocked at and changed by Brenda’s response.
Brenda: You appreciate others and you don’t appreciate yourself”.
And she shouts: “you are beautiful, accept it and appreciate yourself”.
Her shout worked the miracle as it dawned on me that I was actually beautiful. Thanks to my lovely friend Brenda.
As an eight year old girl, one of my desires was to be slim, tall, beautiful, have long hair. Whenever I get to a place, all heads should turn and all attention should be on me.
Hahahaha. Funny right? It turned out that I got what I dreamt of as a girl. This bible verse comes to mind: “For as he thinks in his heart, so is he”. Proverbs 23:7.
Yes, I got what I wanted.
My new found family
As I got to the drama rehearsal (I joined a drama group because I loved acting). My first day at the rehearsal, all attention was on me (not because I was pretty but because I was a new member). Hahahaha.
I was given a role to play on my first day. The lady that the role was given to initially couldn’t make it to rehearsal that day. She was studying to become a pharmacist.
Yeah. I was very happy and timid at the same time because it was my first time of acting before an audience. All the acting I did before then was in my head. The script was given to me, I went through my lines and when it was time for me to act I did it effortlessly.
I played the role of a young beautiful lady, who was in love with a beautiful, not so rich young man. I can’t remember what happened to the young man and me.
Going for drama rehearsal became a part of my schedule. I always looked forward to it because I made new friends and I was able to relate well with almost everyone. We loved and cared for each other as though we were members of a family. Little did I know that God was up to something.
God was up to something
Back then, we had a tradition in the drama group. At the start of a new school year, the university organizes a welcome ceremony for new students and we were opportune to present a play.
So, in preparation for this welcome ceremony, we had to rehearse. The hostels were locked as the current school year had ended, waiting for the new school year to begin. We got a venue for the purpose of rehearsing.
I couldn’t join the rehearsal early enough, I had to persuade and convince my mum. She eventually released me to go for the rehearsal. On my first day at the rehearsal, I was greeted with a loud shout of rejoicing. They were happy to see me. I think it was our culture as a group to welcome any member of the group with shouts of joy.
Meeting my Destiny friend
So, when I got to there, everyone came out, shouted, hugged and carried me. We had finished shouting and hugging, when a slim, young guy named Femi walked into our midst majestically.
Obviously, he was walking towards me to say hello. He is a member of the group I had not met before now. We greeted each other and that was all. But trust me, I had this question in my mind; “why didn’t he come out when everyone else came out? Was it so that I could recognize him specially?”
Whatever! We continued rehearsing as the days went by and before we knew it, we resumed a new school year, did our drama presentation and we settled into receiving lectures again.
Femi and I became friends. We would see each other once in almost two weeks because I didn’t want to be his friend. At this time, I enjoyed my relationship with God, told Him everything and would talk to me. I spoke to God about everything except my academics.
That was a hug mistake I made. I had challenges in my academics but didn’t talk to God about it. You know, I felt there were more important things to talk to God about than that. I was so engrossed in fulfilling God’s purpose for my life that I forgot that it is God’s will for me to perform excellently in my academics.
I forgot that God was interested in my academics as much as He is in other aspects of my life. As a result, I didn’t do well in my first degree.
Learn about my destiny friend Femi The proposal
God is interested in all aspects of our lives… Thank you for sharing.
You’re welcome Lisa. Yes, God is interested in all aspects of our lives.
Having read this I thought it was really enlightening. I appreciate you finding the time and effort to put this short article together. I once again find myself personally spending a significant amount of time both reading and leaving comments. But so what, it was still worth it.
Thank you so much, I appreciate it.
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It’s my pleasure.