I passionately devoured that book as reading was and is still one of my hobbies. I wasn’t happy when I finished reading the book because I did not have access to a library or book club where I could easily get a book to read.
Who am I ?
So I had finish reading the book and I sat on my bed thinking about life. Yes, I mean I was thinking about life. I am a quiet lady who does a lot of her talking in her mind.
I thought about the past (growing up),about the present and the new world of college I was about to enter into. Many questions flooded my mind. The most daunting of all the thought was that of going into college; meeting with so many people from different backgrounds, ideologies and all.
At that point, I knew I needed help. I grew up a quiet girl who loves and clings to her mum a lot. My mum was my safe zone. A hiding/safe place for me. The world(school) was too busy for my liking.😊
Back in school, I loved it when it is quiet and sane. Once it get noisy and tense I leave the scene, either physically or in my thoughts.
This was how I did it; once it gets noisy in the classroom, when the girls and boys are shouting and playing, I log out and retire into my thoughts of the beautiful future I dream of every moment.
It was an interesting thing for me.
My Dreams and Aspirations.
I dreamt of being an influential, wealthy, beautiful and independent woman. As a young girl, I did not know what it meant to be married, so having a husband wasn’t part of my dream.
Whenever it gets noisy on the outside, I retire into my lovely and beautiful aspirations. I would see myself beautiful and neatly dressed, with my high heels, very long, well and neatly packed hair, sleek face beat, standing on a podium and addressing people mostly (women) don’t know why.
As time went by, I built on my dream of my future and it became bigger.
My Journey with God Started
With all the thoughts in my mind, I suddenly paused (didn’t know why) and I heard this question right there in my mind;
“Olabisi (that is my name), from everything you have heard and seen about God, don’t you think you should give Him a chance in your life?”
I replied “really?’’
And I heard clearly “Yes”.
So, I knelt down by my bed side and said:
“God, I have heard, seen and read so much about you, I ask that you forgive my sins, I ask that you come into my life and be my Lord. I hope I won’t get to a point in this new life with you where I would ask; is this everything there is to been a child of God, so what’s next?”
And I heard Phillipians 1:6.
I opened my bible and checked it out. It reads:
“Being confident of this very thing, that he which has begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ.” KJV
Hence, began my journey with God.